Shedding Skin

After every epoch of transformation, we look back and tend to revel in gratitude, wishing we had surrendered more eloquently to this new way of being. And yet, when the top layer of skin begins to separate, the fears and anxiety of the losses, the reallocation of emotional and physical energy, and the wonderment of a new vision feels slightly invigorating, but many times, much more consistently like a dark, dank cloudiness in our line of sight.

To build the courage to endure these new vulnerabilities of a new way of being, new characteristics, while still preserving the functioning portions requires stillness. It can be helpful to accept the illogical, yet many times, symbolic truths which further filter down into shifts of consciousness.

I wish I could say this process gets easier, but I can not in full confidence say this is so. I may have a reference of how much I have supposedly grown during my life, but each phase of shedding feels, at times, more excruciating as it is closer to the core of who we are and requires even more diligence. If one is fortunate, they will have community support.

In summary, this rite of passage, if one is committed, will happen multiple times and each one will possess its own significance with nuances that only books or virtual reality could capture on a detailed but not quite accurate level. The mysticism of learning how to trust and feel all of the emotions are paramount for each cycle.

For my journey, I pray ceaselessly with and for gratitude in wisdom, courage, love, and community. I pray for the courage and the strength to practice this path and pivot at any time. In this cycle, there is reprieve, if not elation of unfolding into newness, with an understanding of the passage…